Drea had to check my ass

That's what best friends are for.

Drea had to let me know that I've been filled with a lot of negative energy for the past few months. It was a serious deep conversation. Sometimes I don't realize that people feel uncomfortable from my actions and it's only because I'm secure with my self and very comfortable in my own skin like when I dance around and pop my booty lol. But she was right. There has been a lot of negative things that I've done lately. For example, I kicked some girls ass at Les Deux last week. I know I shouldn't have but she was drunk and said a few things, I was intoxicated too, but anyway I knocked her out and I shouldn't have. She was an innocent drunk white girl who probably woke up the next day not knowing what happened. Me on the other hand, a few months ago I probably wouldn't have done shit and let the girl just go, but because I have a lot of anger in me I just let loose on her. Drinking shouldn't be my excuse, I should know better. If I ever see her again I'd apologize to her.

Anyway, I know exactly what it is that has been causing me to act this way. Ever since JD and I started or tried to be friends again I've been filled with this negative energy. And don't get me wrong, it's not all him. It's stress that goes down with IMMAE too, but he definitely takes a toll on me. He may have hit me up last week and said he was sorry for being an asshole and he loves me and adores me dearly, but that don't mean shit. No matter how much we care, him and I have a lot of hatred towards each other. He still has the same issues he has had since we broke up. The reason why we broke up was so he could find time to himself to fix them, but they are obviously still there. I hope he figures them out one day. I know I won't be there for it.

I'm going to make a change cause there is no way I am going to let my anger towards him affect my actions and jeopardize the friendships that I've already created. I really need to learn my lesson and I've already started to make the changes.

*flexes*

I love Drea for keepin' it real with me.